The stomach lining changes over about every 5 days, your taste buds change every two weeks, every day you shed over a million skin cells, the uterine wall for a woman sheds every month. We are constantly changing and from day to day we are never living in the same body. How will you begin the process of coming into relationship with your body and your gut for who they are and what they need today?
Tonight I went to the Boulder Youth Body Alliance Body Slam. It was a night of poetry, of appreciation for the body, of recognizing the silence of an eating disorder and that silence can no longer be tolerated. I am trying to process tonight and it was just so intense. The words from two amazing poets Andrea Gibson and Sonya Renee touched my heart, made me cry, laugh, and turn inward. Here is my tribute to tonight:
I'm truly confused. How did we get to the point in our society where we hide our pain, where we feel as though we can't truly show up, that we can't speak our fears and be honest in the moment. To speak of the pain that lies within all of us. We yearn and search for connection and yet we deny ourselves the same thing we are searching for. We sit in coffee shops on our laptops and crackberries for the facade of feeling connected to the outside world. We sit in anxiety, pain, sadness, depression, confusion in the so called safety of our own home and feel embarrassed and shame when we even let someone else in to the reality of our world; like that is not the way life should be. The mirror becomes something we hate. It is the thing that reflects back all of our pain, our self criticism, the false self we hide behind. And we then turn that hatred outward toward the people that reflect back to us all that we despise about ourselves on the inside and yet never let anyone in to crack the film over the mirror to help one truly see themselves again. We were born in to this world pure, full of laughter, smiles, lightness and hope. I believe this can be reclaimed; that the war on the body is a misguided attempt toward trying to reconnect with who we once were when we entered this world. A new path can be created. Every minute we get to decide to choose to be happy, to choose to love and be loved. Choose you, no matter who that is, choose you in your gloriously awkwardness, choose you.
Stephanie Mara Pollock
Here to discuss the many ways we can find nourishment.