Life is in a constant flux. Yet most of us carry around hurts and pain from the past that we either bury down deep and do not want to examine or are too scared to look at. Well this past year I drudged up disappointments from the time I was born, and while it was scary in the moment and intense to live through, I feel more in alignment with myself now. Sometimes we have to go to the deep dark depths of our soul and muck around in there to be able to re-surface and see the light. A yoga teacher friend of mine once told me when I was going through a tumultuous time this past year that I was in the butterfly soup.
"The butterfly soup?"
"So when caterpillars go into their cocoon they completely turn into mush and dematerialize and then transform back into a butterfly."
So when we have fallen apart, lying on our floor, crying, a mess, thinking we're not able to pick ourselves back up, there is always something beautiful about to be re-born. It is when we are able to let go of how we think things should be and find acceptance for the way things are that we can allow ourselves to cry and be sad and disappointed. I have learned the greatest lessons from delving into the deep dark depths of my soul. And now when I am in a period of lightness and calm, I find myself waking up the morning and at first a slight skip of my heart of anxiousness waiting for the other proverbial shoe to drop and then remember that everything is perfect just the way it is. And the more I come back to the present moment and remind myself that I can handle anything that comes my way and everything I have been through not only through this past year but through the past several years of my life I remember how strong I am.
So often we focus on what is wrong, what we can change, how we can be better, strong, faster, skinnier, and rarely do we take the time to sit back and bask in the glow of who we are and everything we do possess. When we start engaging our brain in thoughts that lift us up, this action begins to carry over into every other part of our life that we begin to cultivate appreciation for life just the way it is. So I invite you to embrace the constant flux and ever lasting change of life and know that with each passing moment you can ride the wave of life and flow through any thing that comes your way.