I have learned through my journey and relationship with food that what works for me isn't going to work for everyone else. I don't live in your body, I don't truly know what your body needs from moment to moment (I do however love teaching how to learn to communicate with your unique body).
At the beginning of my gut healing journey, I was told how mucus forming dairy was and that it could be causing some of my issues. You want me to give up my yogurt!? I loved my sugary added yogurts and the first time I heard this I was not ready to take that advice.
I tell you this story because it took me another 3 years to actually experiment with completely taking dairy out of my daily eating habits to find out that indeed dairy and I are not friends. When we are ready to deepen in our relationship with food and ourselves we will. What I have learned through my client's and my own process with the gut is to be patient and to give yourself plenty of time.
Embrace where you are now with your relationship with food. Sometimes it may just be too intense to look at how you are nourishing yourself because it may be a protective blanket covering up some intense emotions that you are just not ready to deal with yet. And that is totally fine! Love yourself up and know that you are doing the best you can in this moment to take the very best care of yourself.
I wish I had been told this more on my journey to heal my gut. Every time I had a digestive upset I felt like a failure and that all my effort to heal was for nothing. But every decision, every effort, every choice I made in the direction of listening, of tuning in to myself, especially in the moments that I was in pain and I didn't want to listen, brought me closer to myself and to my body and what it truly wanted.
So if you find yourself eating in front of me, just know that all I wish for you is an enjoyable experience with that food. We are all at different phases and stages in our relationship with food and I find the journey beautiful and full of deep wisdom and knowledge for who we are and the stories we bring with us from childhood. It is all right there on our plate.